The end and a beginning

My life has no significance. I'm air, eternally present yet invisible. The grains of sand are slowly trickling down the hourglass, while I'm wasting away precious time. My friends don't notice me. Though sad, they are not to blame. I am truly really shy and introvert. I assume I'm more of a listener rather than a speaker. My family only consists of my mother. She has been a great help whom I cling onto and vice versa. I see her more as my best friend than my guardian. Oh, how I wish I could go to family gatherings or spend holidays with my relatives. I implore you ; you shouldn't think of these things as burdens. Cherish it.

I've found myself falling into a depression on several occasions. Whenever I see someone so fortunate enough to be happy, I smile. It's a smile of melancholy, envy and yet happiness. Happy that they don't have to share this misery. Yet, so many of them do not realise they are so lucky and I sometimes wish they could appreciate their life ever so more. I often wonder why some have the path to happiness laid out for them and some have to face a rocky road. Regarding this, I'm aware that my life isn't that horrible as I have thought it was. Much worse occurances are happening in this world.

Today, 11 september, I vaguely heard my friend talking about the Day Zero project. It's about setting 101 goals and completing them within a time span of 1001 days. I found it rather intriguing and perhaps I could get determined and change the things in my life for once. It inspired me to seize control and make myself useful. Even though, I'm just one person, I'm going to aspire to help others and improve myself. It's time for a metamorphose. It's time to stop climb out of this downward spiral. It may sound odd, but I believe it wasn't just coincidence that it is 11 september today. Approximately 4000 people passed away in the tragic event 8 years ago. I regard it as a sign to quit pondering and to take action. Life is short and I'm going to give back to the world.

And that's why I created this blog. Not to seek sympathy, complain and pity myself, but to change it. The way we live entirely depends on our actions. I'm tired of waking up everyday and going to same routine, while I sink deeper in my depressing thoughts. Delete. I've been wasting 15 years of my precious life with no goal whatsoever. You only get to live once and I want to make it memorable while I still can. You never know what the future holds. Inspired by the Day Zero project, I'm going to post my 101 goals. I'll try to finish them within the time span, but some things, I might not be able to complete within the next years. Some goals require funds and I'm not even an adult. I regard them more as lifetime goals. I hope I'll make it, along with some of you, who have also embarked on this ambitious voyage.

It's the end of my past and the beginning of the future.

If you are also intrigued by the Day Zero Project, please read more about it on their site.